Feast your eyes women, this is my precious Demon fighting Devil.  He's a Devil for two reason

1. he's a good looking devil
2. he's also a drug user and we have been fighting demons for over a year now.

I wish he could see how his choices have affected, not just him, but the whole family.  Especially his younger brother Teeny is so angry with him and I worry about Teeny feeling like he has to be "perfect" to make up for the heartache his brother has caused.

Here is a brief rundown of what my beautiful little demon has done over the last year (I still don't have my head around everything enough to blog about it in detail):

• Christmas 2003 - came home stoned off his ass so we checked his car and found a bag of pot.  We ran it down the garbage disposal.
• May 2004 - while driving home at 3 a.m. got pulled over for speeding and cop found more pot, gets thrown in jail
• July 2004 - pulled over by same cop, who searched his car and found, you guessed it, more pot because Devil was obviously stoned out of his mind, gets thrown in jail again
• September 2003 - totaled his Malibu, sent to hospital in Ambulance, and yes, there was more pot found, but nice cop didn't report it
• October - Hasn't had a clean UA yet
• November - Went AOL several times and we suspect that he was too stoned to go home
• Checked self out of Treatment Program
• December 2004 - lost his job because of not showing up to work and broke into a large grocery chain store and "borrowed" 4 cartons of cigs, got caught because they had cameras and manager recognized him, you guessed wrong this time they found Xanax on him and something to crush it with and he didn't have a prescription.  Apparently the thing to do is crush the Xanax and then snort it?????????, Once again, go directly to jail, do not pass Go.
• January 2005 - pulled a very large bowie knife on young man because young man came on to Devil's girlfriend - now the funny thing about this is that Devil basically screws anything that will lay on their back for him so I'm pretty sure we will also have to deal with either a STD at the very least or AIDS in a couple of years - gets thrown in jail
• Is left in jail because he has no more get out of jail free cards. Grandparents loose $7,000 bail they put up for him last time he was jailed.  Sat in jail for 5 days until young man decided to drop charges because apparently he had threatened Devil and there were witnesses
• Goes back to see his therapist who thinks he is Bi-polar and will pescribe something for it after a couple of more meetings (great, just what he needs, more drugs)
• Finally gets a clean UA
• Contacts a drug rehab group, kinda like AA, but for druggies

Somewhere along the way he becomes a cutter and scars his beautiful arms.  We have our fingers crossed now and are holding our collective breaths that he means it this time.  To top it all off, I think I'm pregnant again and the earlist I can test is next Tuesday.  Man, I should have saved that bag instead of running it down the disposal.